They have affected and continue to affect almost every part of my life - simple tasks like shopping, housework, looking after myself can often seem too much of an effort; BPD has left a string of broken and unhappy relationships, and makes it very hard to get close to anyone, such that I withdraw from social activities and become more and more isolated, which just fuels the depression, and so on in a vicious cycle that constantly gnaws away at what little confidence and self-esteem that I have.
My support comes from my dogs, my GP and my therapist, a couple of close friends who accept me for what I am and take my often erratic moods in their stride without ever questioning or complaining, and my medications!
My hope for the future is that with the support and help that I now receive I will be able to slowly build a life for myself, hopefully such that I can open up more. But more that that, I hope that the access to treatments for mental health issues are equal countrywide and that everyone who suffers has the necessary resources to turn to for help.
I will be taking 5 to spread mental health awareness and help reduce the stigma and isolation that we face every day; and to show that a few kind words, however insignificant they might seem, can mean the world to someone suffering.
This blog is part of the Time to Talk Day 2015 #Take5ToBlog initiative.