I’ve always been very open about my mental health. My friends are always watching my moods fly up and down as I post status updates on Facebook. Although people may think "Why does he post so much?"
I can finally spill the beans!
My reason... to see how I am doing! I constantly flick through my history searching for triggers and possible reasons or fluctuations. I want to know more about me: sometimes I don’t know me, sometimes I do. It’s The times when I don’t feel myself I need to know more about that me!
The hardest part about being Bipolar is watching yourself, the person that you are so fond of and put so much time and effort into being, slowly drift away into a sea of depression. Trust me when I say I don’t give up easily: I’ll claw at myself to remain in contact with myself.
The reason I’m still here today is because of my friends and family
The reason I’m still here today is because of my friends and family, each one of them has been there for me on various occasions, not always good, not always bad. It’s those times that keep a person going, a reason for keeping that ‘chin up’.
Being so open and honest with my friends and family has always given me a lifeline. If I’m in a bad way, they know why. Sure your friends may be supportive anyway if you suddenly break down. However, when they understand why not only gives you a real sense of release but also none of the guilt or embarrassment.
The best thing I have ever done in my life is make my mental health common knowledge
The best thing I have ever done in my life is make my mental health common knowledge. It’s not a cure for bipolar and it never will be but it’s the next best thing. The best thing is that I’ve never had a negative reaction and friends are friends because they like you: whether it be having the best time of your life or whether they’re picking you up when you fall. We’d all do the same for them!
Still unsure where I’m going with this blog but I guess one thing is clear as my fingers do the typing: I love my friends and family and talking about my mental health not only gives them peace (to know I’m safe, happy and well) but also lets me wipe the slate clean and start another battle for the day/week/month or even year.