Depression is not simple - it's more than being 'sad'

I've been suffering from depression for just under four years, and depression has a way of replacing your confidence with pure anxiety and self-hatred. 

The scariest thing I found about suffering from a mental illness is the effect it has on every aspect of your life; it’s not just what’s inside your head. For me, suffering from depression became debilitating as I couldn't find happiness in the little things I used to enjoy doing. More often than not, depression would cause me to sit in my room and cry, usually for no reason at all.

When I asked for mental health support, I received help from more people than I expected

It's been two years since my very first dealing with depression and anxiety.

I remember the day when I first hit a low point in life and it's not a nice memory to have. I didn't know how to deal with such a strong mental health issue, so I hid my problems away from family and friends which made my issues worse.

I didn't want to get out of bed, I didn't want to socialise with friends and I’d put off family days out. There came a time when I questioned my existence in life; was I a burden? Was I even worth having around? What did I bring to life in general?

My best friend makes life with BPD more manageable

Having a personality disorder is not fun or smart. In fact, some days I wish I would wake up and it would just be gone - I would be me again without all these thoughts and emotions. 

My journey has been a long painful one. I’ve never been close to my family and I got burned by too many friends to keep them - so it was just me most of my life.

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