I have swine flu, AND whilst I'm more than happy to receive your messages of sympathy I'm wallowing in a vat of self pity the size of the Watford Gap which is hardly admirable, thus I hardly deserve your kind words. (grin)
The internalisation continues. I ended up having a day off as I broke down with the hurt and sadness inside of me; that is at the core of my depression. I didn't want to take the day off I wanted to shoulder on, to go in.