A few years ago if someone had said to me, Josh you will experience psychosis and it will be confusing and frightening and change your outlook on life forever. I probably would have said something unhelpful. I was ignorant back then. I thought people who suffered schizophrenia or psychosis were dangerous and violent. I hadn’t even heard of schizoaffective disorder!
The pandemic we find ourselves in today has been, an event that began off as extremely difficult to deal with. I remember as a kid being grounded; never did I imagine a whole country being grounded. I remember when my parents would ask me, “why don’t you spend more time at home?”, now they ask me, “why don’t you go out for a walk?”.
When I think about it, the shift in attitudes is quite interesting and at times quite amusing.
My diagnosis is schizophrenia. I’ve had four catastrophic breakdowns in my lifetime; three of these were so severe that I was sectioned under the mental health act. However, for some 12 years during the intervening period of my 3rd and 4th breakdown, I was largely mentally healthy, engaging in relationships and work.
There’s a limitation on who you can tell that you have schizophrenia - especially being from the BAME community. Not everyone understands schizophrenia or thinks it’s a real thing. Some people might think it means having a split personality, but it’s not like that.