Depression: personal blogs and stories

The following blog posts are written by people with personal experience of depression. By talking openly, our bloggers hope to increase understanding around mental health, break stereotypes and take the taboo out of something that – like physical health – affects us all.


Why is mental illness regarded taboo compared with physical illness?

At the age of twenty-two, after four years of my first identified episode of depression, I sit here with the realisation that although I haven't sank, I have merely been bobbing along through life – similar to a rubber duck on water. I’ve been staying afloat, and on the surface I am fine. But like the water in a storm, things can quickly change with an unexpected trigger. Negative thought patterns occur, feelings blur and in consequence emotions become uncontrollable.

I didn't think depression could affect people like me

People like me don't get depressed; depression doesn't affect people like me. I'm always smiling, happy, always the first to make a joke out of a bad situation, if you hand me lemons I'm the first to grab a large glass and make a gin and tonic. I’m naturally an optimist.

I was tired of pretending that everything is fine

 The confident and vibrant girl that I once was became no more. I fell into the trap of depression that seemed to have hit me overnight. I would usually be the one that always hid in the bathroom crying my eyes out and then wipe my own tears away only to walk out those doors like I have it all together. The young fifteen year old girl that I was at the time was drowned with anxiety, fear and a lack of something unknown. I was overwhelmed with the world and fell into exhaustion trying to act like I have it all together. The truth was that I was tired.

Attitudes to mental health in workplaces still need to change

I told my manager in my job that I was experiencing depression and that I was on medication which would affect my ability to do my job. He said he did not believe that my medication was effecting my performance, and that I was just not up to doing my job and I would be dismissed in three months time unless I improve. I really didn't know what to do or who to talk to as I have a lot of financial commitments. I had to take time off work as I couldn't face going back there following this.

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