, September 21, 2016

When more and more people recognise the determination, and guts, it takes to live and thrive with mental health problems, then we'll know times really have changed.

One of the great things about social media is having an unexpected, online chat at stupid o'clock at night, with a friend who lives many miles away.

The conversation turned to my early stage breast cancer diagnosis. “You're so brave,” my old friend wrote on Facebook messenger.

I've heard this several times, since my diagnosis earlier this year. It, and variations on that theme.

It started me thinking about the number of times someone has said this when my bipolar was giving me grief, or when my anxiety was so sky high it was practically in nodding distance of Mars. Or when I was so deeply depressed, suicide seemed not just a viable option, but the only one.

It was an easy comparison, because no one's ever said it. No one has ever told me I was brave because I was dealing with mania, or through-the-roof anxiety, or suicidal thoughts.

And yet, there are few things braver in this world than to get out of bed when there seems no point. To stay out of bed. To stay alive, when there really seems no reason. (There is a point; there always is, but seeing it when you're in the depths of despair is like looking for a black cat, at midnight, in an area with no street lights, when you've just lost your torch.)

You can't get much braver than doing your absolute level best to stay alive, to keep going, when every single cell in your body is seemingly screaming at you to stop, to give up, to quit.

These feelings are not helped by being told – by friends, family, and, yes, mental health care providers – to “just get on with it”, when my mental health takes a dive.

One of these days, the message to “just get on with things” is going to be served up with a generous side portion of “and I know that takes real guts”.

It's brave to keep going, when you want to stop. It takes even more courage, even more guts, to start doing things again, once we've come to a stop. Even braver, in my experience, than dealing with day surgery, or radiotherapy, or endless hospital appointments.

One of these days, I'll get one of those side portions. One day, more and more people struggling with mental health problems will be told how brave we are when we carry on living. When we carry on, carrying on.

When that happens – when more and more people recognise the determination, and guts, it takes to live and indeed thrive with mental health problems – we'll know times really have changed.

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Sheila, you're so brave to actually blog this it is so true, I have been suffering extreme anxiety & OCD for some years lost my job of 33 years & some so called friends. Friends & family stay away sometimes I guiltily think would they come if I had cancer would they still say having a "real illness puts life in prospective" I hate myself for letting my head rule my live. I have friends who have suffered cancer we meet up for coffee but I still feel guilty if I speak of my problem. You are so brave to cope with both & to say it as it is. Wish you a big Get well X

Reply to "You're so brave"

Thanks, Susan, reading this on a tough day, it helps. So sorry you lost your job, work helps a lot of people, & not just talking about the financial side. Unless you think otherwise, I would speak to your friends with cancer about your own problems. Some of the people I've known or heard of who have what many would think of as the biggest problems, are in fact very understanding that everyone has problems, and we all struggle with something. The fact is just now, I'm really not "coping" at all. I did get out of bed, washed up. However, I have stuff to do, places to be ... well, here's hoping. Anxiety is complete hell, it took having it, to truly "get" this. I have not had to deal with OCD but you have my sympathy. Sorry about your so-called friends. Support sometimes comes from the least expected people, & places. Bless you & all the best, Sheila

You are brave

Sheila - it was brave of you to even write this and I hope I'm around long enough to witness a time when the world recognises the determination required just to keep going. I recognise this bravery in others but, in the depths of depression, I cannot feel anything other than pathetic and a burden to my family.

Reply to "You're so brave"

Dominic, I am so, so sorry you feel like a burden. You are neither that, nor in any way "pathetic". Please, please recognise that you are just as brave as the rest of us, to keep going in the depths of depression. Here's hoping we both get to see that big change, what a better world that will be.

Thank you

Thank you this made me feel less alone. I agree fully. The amount of times people over look MH and don't see it as a true illness. It is great though that we are all pulling together to re-educate people. xxxxxxxxx

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