The following blog posts are written by people with personal experience of borderline personality disorder. By talking openly, our bloggers hope to increase understanding around mental health, break down stereotypes and take the taboo out of something that – like physical health – affects us all.

People must make more of an effort to understand borderline personality disorder

Every day is a struggle: the battle in my mind between wanting to die to end the pain, and trying to survive to overcome the trauma of the past and live a decent life. In an instant, emotions can go from one extreme to another and it can take a very, very long time for the intense distress to come back down to the normal emotional baseline. It’s all about tolerating the distress – how can one who has never learned to self-soothe know how to tolerate extreme distress without behaving in extreme ways?

I campaign to change mental health attitudes because no one should go through what I did

"People told me I wasn’t ‘thin enough’ for an eating disorder. This led me to not get the treatment I needed." – Abbie

I first properly experienced mental health issues at the age of 15 was when, and with this came a lot of damaging attitudes and actions. When I started going to therapy for treatment of depression and anxiety, I was still at school and my peers told me that ‘I didn’t look like a psycho’, which is kind of a backwards compliment that made me feel I had to be sicker.

Psychologists teach damaging stereotypes of people with BPD

"Having a personality disorder is a wrestle." – Imani

To me, life with a diagnosed personality disorder is a wrestle. That’s how I’d describe it to others. It’s a wrestle, but the key opponent is me. I am officially my own worst enemy, and every single day I put up a valiant attack against myself and my weaknesses – beating myself up for every shortcoming I perceive to be there and every mistake I know full well I am making, yet feel unable to stop making.

I was told my personality disorder would be judged by my colleagues

I was diagnosed with Emotionally Unstable Personality Disorder (EUPD) in February 2016; I began my mental health nursing training in September 2016. I was warned by both my psychiatrist and psychologist, that during my training, I may encounter some discrimination against people like me.