Depression: personal blogs and stories

The following blog posts are written by people with personal experience of depression. By talking openly, our bloggers hope to increase understanding around mental health, break stereotypes and take the taboo out of something that – like physical health – affects us all.


Men's relationship with mental health is a challenging one

“Sickness can surely take the mind where minds can’t usually go,” proclaimed rock behemoths The Who. Listening to this as a young man empowered me to acknowledge and embrace my own mental health demons, which are many. The reason I wanted to blog about this difficult subject (hard for me to write about and hard for you to read) is because it’s so important to talk about. Suicide is the leading killer amongst UK men under 50! This equates to a man taking his own life every 2 hours.

We need to ditch the 'One size fits all' stereotype of depression

I don't know what's worse: not being able to stop crying or feeling completely numb and emotionless. I watch my friends get essays and tests back. I watch their faces light up as they realise they did better than expected. While I look at mine completely emotionless. It doesn't matter if I got an A or a U, I feel nothing.

When asked by my therapist to rate my pleasure rating for all the things I've done in a week, it doesn't matter if I've done the most mundane of tasks or if I've done something exciting. My pleasure rating remains the same: zero.

Knowing people are in my corner means I don't have to hide my mental health

The first time I wanted to share how imprisoning my mental health was, I didn't really know where to start. So I decided I would make a video, not think about it too much and whatever came out, at least it would be honest. I was at a point of desperation and didn't really have much to lose. This was nearly three years ago. It was shared by multiple publications at the time, including Time to Change.

Talking about my suicidal thoughts showed who my friends are

Suicide is a big word! From seeing it portrayed in the media to reading people’s personal stories, either a family’s experience or the person themselves, it can be scary to even think about. My journey with it began when someone close to me experienced suicidal thoughts, but I never really understood what they were going through at the time, how it could affect someone mentally and physically – feeling so low and wanting to never tell anyone about what you’re going through.

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